You guys, my Mom hasnt been feeling well, for, 7 years. And she always gets through it. We don't know exactly whats wrong, but she's struggling through it. Keeping a happy mood, cooking, driving, stuff Mom's do. And ya know, this retarded fucking divorce probaly isn't gohelping either. But, today, it's been wierd, she is making constant trips too the toilet to...throw up. I've seen her do it twice, since 4:30pm. And on the third, she didn't see the couch, bumped into it, got back up, completeley CRASHED towards the floor, I immediatly got up, yelled at this horrid sight, right when my Step-Dad walks in, he freaks out, gets her up, and says to cal 911, but she said not to. How the hell am I supposed to react to this? You know she almost choked to death on her puke, while we were at school, and Jason was at work, noone could have helped her. Noone was there, the fact that she hit the ground knocked it out of her throat. I mean what the hell? School JUST starts, I just get home from Minnesota, I have an inspection in ROTC tomorrow....what the hell? I...I just don't want to get to school. I want to help her, she is in terrible condition. Sometimes, I'm annoying, I fail classes, and play the XBox. Lemme tell you, If I'm grown and my wife/girlfriend/child/nephew/whatever is just falling to the ground for no reason, you bet I'll carry her into the car and speed to the hospital. No pausing, I would want her to get better. There are times I'm a bud, and others a man. A REAL man. Not, Oh god look at my muscles I'm so cool. Like, GET THE HELL UP I AM GOING TO SAVE YOU! YOU WILL NOT DIE!
Sometimes, we hve fun.
Others, you be a Hero. And don't hold it over your head.
You HAVE to help those you love.
And...its just overwhelming.
Thank you.
For reading this. I'm sorry for wasting your time.